no soup for me

i got rejected for my second guest list request this week. well, in both cases i was originally obliged, but at the last minute they said there just wasnt enough room and id have to be bumped. if i would have actually gone down to the shows im sure i'd have been able to get in. but i dont put that kind of effort into going out anymore. i find its mostly just an expensive waste of time. guess i didnt deserve to be on the list anyway. and if it seemed all that, i would have just payed to get in. so in a way, were even.

besides. i have work to do. and sets to put together. so im not totally losing my edge. im just busy. ill just keep telling myself that.